Stress

girl-prayingmore_pictures_1044I confess to spending a good part (actually MOST) of my weekend being depressed over the overwhelming busy-ness of my job.  What was 2 half days per week for ten years, went quickly into three full days and now five full days.   And actually I take a LOT of work home with me especially on the weekends.   I retired fully ten years ago, was called back to work “just a little” and wonder how I got to be where I am today.   I agreed to a special project last Fall…which is now finished, but five other projects have taken its place.!!   I thought with the economy I’d just ride it out….but this weekend I began to wonder.

Today I had a LONG talk with my “boss” and while I still have a LOT of work, we came to a “somewhat” agreement.   I will see how much the other party holds up their part of the agreement.   It feels pretty good to say a lot and get things off my mind and heart and into words through our “talk.”    I feel pretty good about it.  But I wonder how long it will last.   Time will tell.

Just when I think I am completely fed up….they talk me out of quitting.    I am not sure if I am a glutton for punishment or if I actually like my job and don’t want to leave it.    Perhaps it is a bit of both.   I have come to LOVE tutoring my young man twice a week and enjoy it fully, so I will not give that up. But somehow there is a balance out there somewhere. Work is far too consuming, and while I enjoy the work, I must find what works for me and the office both. They allow me a pretty wide latitude as long as my work is completed.

Anyhow, I have nothing new to show, nothing new to share in my needlearts work….simply because there is NOTHING right now.    I considered closing my blog for a while…but I LOVE the blogging world and all of you…my friends.   So…..I will just be sad for only today and move on.    Maybe a few stitches on SOMETHING will help.             Amities, Averyclaire