Gratitude

Violets For the last several weeks I have not been feeling well and undergoing so many tests that I didn’t think there were any more tests possible! They found a mass on my liver and things truly didn’t look good for a couple of weeks. One minute I was sure things would turn out great and the next minute I’d have tears welling up in my eyes. What a roller coaster ride. Today I received word that the mass was not malignant, but still must be monitored carefully. I’ll need a CT scan every three months and blood work each month to check on things. But today I feel like a new person with a new lease on life.

How things can change in one’s life in just an instant! We went from laughing about the problems of redoing our bathroom (when you have only one bathroom to use) to seriously discussing chemotherapy, surgery, and yes we even discussed death quite a bit. We had prepared ourselves for the worst scenario. I guess I am not out of the woods for another year, but I sure feel like a bit of sunshine today. Life can change in the blink of an eye!

I am grateful for my very special husband who walked with me and held my hand each step of this journey, for my daughter who cried with me, and for my two sons who knew nothing of my illness, but are always there for me, no matter what, and for my sister-in-law (the oncology nurse) who kept me focused and kept me from freaking out. She is so knowledgeable about so many things…but her caring concern was very special to me. I am grateful for my friend who lives around the corner and worried for me to take some of my burden away, and for my co-workers who prayed for me each day. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

I am grateful for my friend who had dinner with me last evening. She is such good company that I didn’t need to dwell on “THE” doctor’s appointment I was having today. We laughed and discussed everything, including my concerns. She is delightful company and I thank her for being there. She had no idea about my health issues when we met, but patiently sat and listened VERY well.

I am grateful, but “grateful” doesn’t seem powerful enough of a word to describe how I feel today. A chance to begin again….or to pick up where I left off and make life even better. This surely was a life changing experience for me and I AM grateful. And last, but not least, I am a very spiritual person and am grateful for the arms of the Lord who held me up these past weeks. It was comforting and peace giving. I knew the warmth of His presence would be with me no matter how it turned out. Again, I am grateful…….Averyclaire