Violets For the last several weeks I have not been feeling well and undergoing so many tests that I didn’t think there were any more tests possible! They found a mass on my liver and things truly didn’t look good for a couple of weeks. One minute I was sure things would turn out great and the next minute I’d have tears welling up in my eyes. What a roller coaster ride. Today I received word that the mass was not malignant, but still must be monitored carefully. I’ll need a CT scan every three months and blood work each month to check on things. But today I feel like a new person with a new lease on life.

How things can change in one’s life in just an instant! We went from laughing about the problems of redoing our bathroom (when you have only one bathroom to use) to seriously discussing chemotherapy, surgery, and yes we even discussed death quite a bit. We had prepared ourselves for the worst scenario. I guess I am not out of the woods for another year, but I sure feel like a bit of sunshine today. Life can change in the blink of an eye!

I am grateful for my very special husband who walked with me and held my hand each step of this journey, for my daughter who cried with me, and for my two sons who knew nothing of my illness, but are always there for me, no matter what, and for my sister-in-law (the oncology nurse) who kept me focused and kept me from freaking out. She is so knowledgeable about so many things…but her caring concern was very special to me. I am grateful for my friend who lives around the corner and worried for me to take some of my burden away, and for my co-workers who prayed for me each day. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

I am grateful for my friend who had dinner with me last evening. She is such good company that I didn’t need to dwell on “THE” doctor’s appointment I was having today. We laughed and discussed everything, including my concerns. She is delightful company and I thank her for being there. She had no idea about my health issues when we met, but patiently sat and listened VERY well.

I am grateful, but “grateful” doesn’t seem powerful enough of a word to describe how I feel today. A chance to begin again….or to pick up where I left off and make life even better. This surely was a life changing experience for me and I AM grateful. And last, but not least, I am a very spiritual person and am grateful for the arms of the Lord who held me up these past weeks. It was comforting and peace giving. I knew the warmth of His presence would be with me no matter how it turned out. Again, I am grateful…….Averyclaire


15 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Jane
    Jun 13, 2009 @ 00:11:22

    I am so glad that you now know what the results are. It is such a rollercoaster ride until you know, a ride I travelled with my mum. Look after yourself and take care


  2. paddysdaughter
    Jun 13, 2009 @ 01:24:46

    What a worrying time, so glad to hear you are going to be OK. My thoughts are with you. Sue McB


  3. Siv Hege
    Jun 13, 2009 @ 01:30:04

    True friends are the ones that stick around when things get tough. I am happy you have felt support from good friends and family, and that the future is bright:)


  4. virtualquilter
    Jun 13, 2009 @ 02:27:14

    My turn to be grateful …. that you are going to be OK. Take care.
    Judy B


  5. Nicole DAVET
    Jun 13, 2009 @ 06:49:01

    Oh ! …no surprise you feeled so tired !

    Good you know which are the causes …I know those fears .. SoonI’ll write you a private email. Kisses..
    Don’t forget to be selfish and good for you !! Nicole


  6. Jane C
    Jun 13, 2009 @ 19:57:11

    I’m so glad you got a good result. I’m going through a little bit the same myself, but it’s only been a week or two, not a month. May the Lord continue to bless you!


  7. Karol
    Jun 13, 2009 @ 21:30:05

    I am happy that your results where good. May you continue be wrapped in HIS arms!


  8. Patty
    Jun 14, 2009 @ 20:30:30

    I’m so very grateful that the news was good. Thank the good Lord for family and friends. You’ll be in my prayers tonight.


  9. kathleen
    Jun 15, 2009 @ 08:01:06

    This is very good news; thank you for sharing this with us. Be good to yourself this summer, enjoy your garden, and your family and friends who have given you wonderful support.


  10. Anne S
    Jun 16, 2009 @ 03:05:13

    Here’s hoping the next 12 months are worry-free for you. It is amazing that some things make you reassess life, and realise not the sweat the small stuff and appreciate the world around you … fingers crossed these happy days continue for you 🙂


  11. Karen
    Jun 17, 2009 @ 22:29:47

    You never know what tomorrow will bring. I’m glad it turned out well. Your family loves you and will help you through the next 12 months.


  12. Philip
    Jun 21, 2009 @ 04:52:24

    Stunning flowers and photography and I am so happy for you it is really nice to see you are feeling better God Bless



  13. Thomas
    Jun 22, 2009 @ 06:47:00

    I m so happy and relieved to hear that its not malignant. Take care of yourself Avery.


  14. anne prunet
    Jun 26, 2009 @ 14:54:04

    Oh, I have been away in Spain for most of June and did not visit my blog list! I should have known better…
    I discover tonight how concerned you have been and how distressful these past weeks..I really wish I could be one of your neighbours around the corner, to make you laugh as well as discussing serious matters. But the Lord provided you with the friends you deserve to support you during that journey and with a very loving family.
    You are in my prayers.
    LOVE, Anne


  15. Jenny of Elefantz
    Jul 01, 2009 @ 03:01:49

    Hi Averyclaire 🙂
    Could you email me please and I can send you the pattern for block 6. Not sure why you’re having probs with it, though.


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